Like a Virgin

I had one of the most mind blowing sexings of my life yesterday. It was so amazing that it actually made me feel like a virgin again. It felt like it was the first time Justin & I ever had sex.

I was finishing up my cycle & I felt that I was a much “smaller” than usual. Don’t think I poke around my vagina all day to see how wide I can stretch it; I just noticed that when inserting my fairly tiny tampon it felt like I was inserting a 10 cm wide plastic rod. I’m not exactly the type of girl who likes to get freaky while blood is oozing out of my orifice but I didn’t expect it to reduce in size so much that a tampon would hurt. For a second I thought I had accidentally jammed one up there & had forgotten to remove it but that wasn’t the case. When I actually tried to retrieve said tampon, my own skinny index finger was too big for me & it hurt. Odd.

I hadn’t fornicated with Justin for probably a week because of ye old mother nature. It drives him insane but since I’m such an amazing girlfriend, I actually try to help ease the blue balls. However, this past week I felt as if Justin wasn’t in love with me anymore. I knew he still loved me very much but he wasn’t in love with me. He’s been a bit more reclusive & cold toward me. I tend to over exaggerate & misinterpret his emotions on the basis that I’m still getting used to actually having someone I love dearly love me back. In this case, I definitely misinterpreted his emotions, calling it a “long shot” is an understatement. More like I aimed for the stars but flung myself into the Pacific ocean instead.

Justin didn’t get any “release” from me this past week. I don’t enjoy feeling equivalent to a cheap $5 hooker when I unzip his pants & get right down to business when he doesn’t treat me with respect. Therefore, he had to use his own resources to get his rocks off. He’s well aware of how stubborn I can be about pleasuring him but I don’t see the point if he’s going to treat me like I’m just his friend with benefits & not his girlfriend. “If you treat me with respect & kiss me first, I’ll do anything you want,” I’ve said to him over & over again. I guess he thinks it’s unnecessary foreplay. I’m a girl, I can’t get wet just because you have a boner, it doesn’t work that way. I need & crave foreplay. It doesn’t have to take an hour or half of it! I just want a bit of sweet attention & then you can plow me all you want. Is that honestly too much to ask? Because making out with me is a walk in the park compared to giving a man oral. They don’t call it a job for nothing.

I went over to Justin’s to hang out with him & I wore a flattering dress for easy access. I was still convinced that the man had fallen out of love with me until we were on his bed & he repeatedly said to me, “I love you, Jackie. I love you.” That totally convinced me of how much I fail miserably at reading his emotions. Soon afterward we had one of the most passionate make out sessions that I had been craving for months. I felt like we were just dating again & the thrill of just making out with him made me hot…in my panties. We felt each other up & engaged in such a passionate act of lovemaking that it felt like we were having sex for the first time minus the awkwardness that comes with the first time. In addition, it also hurt a bit like the first time but the pain fades as pleasure fills my entire being like the warmth of a fire. Honestly–it felt as if he had told me for the first time that he knew I was the missing puzzle to make him whole.

Last night, I didn’t just fornicate with Justin, we made love. Cheeseball or not, it’s the truth. It felt like we fell in love with each other all over again.

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4 Comments on “Like a Virgin”

Peyton
June 20th
10:54 pm

Jana
July 20th
2:37 am

Wow. Just wow. I’ve never had sex like that. I want too, but I don’t have that type of boyfriend. He’s loving and all.. but.. I don’t think we’ve ever “made love”. Which is unfortunate. Sigh. I wish I could.

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Jacqueline Reply:
July 21st, 2010 at 6:00 pm

You should have a talk with your boyfriend & tell him that you want him to “show you” how much he loves you. Take things slowly or try a bit of roleplaying although that isn’t exactly making love, but every girl/guy has the ability to look their partner in the eye & seduce them into a slow & passionate sac session. I believe you can do it!

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